Thursday, November 11, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Things to look forward to Day 9
I want to say a quick painless death but I guess that defeats the point of this being positive thinking :P
So I guess I will have to say: Surviving first year and moving on to better things.
So I guess I will have to say: Surviving first year and moving on to better things.
Monday, November 8, 2010
The F*** You Song.
THIS IN NO WAY HAS TO DO WITH THE GIRL. This is just a really catchy funny song that ABC showed me that brightens up my day and is fun to sing along to when you are angry. Again. I promise this has nothing to do with her.
Fuck You by Cee Lo Green: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc0mxOXbWIU
Fuck You by Cee Lo Green: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc0mxOXbWIU
F.U.N.
Today I was studying for my calculus exam with ABC and guess what?... I HAD FUN. During the most random time to have fun I had TRUE FUN for like the first time since the break up. We were studying and listening to music and she was in my mind, but I was still having fun anyways.
It just kind of clicked. It doesn't matter what happened, I am still Darren Boulet. I don't have to be different if I don't want to. This isn't some spell that was cast on me to stop me from having fun. I can still have fun with my pals that have been with me since elementary school. She can wait because right now I'm focusing on me, my friends and having fun.
It just kind of clicked. It doesn't matter what happened, I am still Darren Boulet. I don't have to be different if I don't want to. This isn't some spell that was cast on me to stop me from having fun. I can still have fun with my pals that have been with me since elementary school. She can wait because right now I'm focusing on me, my friends and having fun.
Anger
I still have some anger built up inside me. Not anger towards her. More like anger in general. This anger built up from this situation, so even if I don't believe it anymore, which I don't, it's still there. I still believe that the more love give the more this anger will go away, but I can't find anyone to love :P I don't even mean love in the romantic sense. I can't even find people to help. No one seems to need my help, or my caring. How can I love anyone when no one needs to be loved?
This is just a big mess of a problem. Well my psych teacher said the average time to get over depression is 6 months. Only 4 more months to go!... I'm getting pretty fucking used to disappointment.
This is just a big mess of a problem. Well my psych teacher said the average time to get over depression is 6 months. Only 4 more months to go!... I'm getting pretty fucking used to disappointment.
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