Being alone sucks. I mean I'm not a loner. I have friends. In fact I have a bunch of friends that really care about me. What I mean by being alone is that I have no one to share my problems with. No one undertands what I'm going through. This is why I'm alone. I have no one to talk to. It probably makes my situation feel worse. The only person who does won't talk to me for my own good. Maybe down the road I will appreciate the fact that I can deal with my problems myself, as of now I don't agree. I mean this is a good experience that will make me stronger and make me appreciate when I do find someone to be with even more. Whether that is a completely new person I never met before, ... or maybe I get back together with the girl. Does that make me a weak spinless person to hope that? I hope not. I feel so guilty, but I have yet to admit it and I can't lie to myself anymore. I want to be with her again.... although I don't believe that will happen. I think that scenerio exists only in my dreams because it actually does exist in my dreams... it happens a lot.
It's good though to think that it will never happen because it forces me to move on, which I think is the healthy thing to do. I just hate feeling alone.
